Drama again ?

oh FCKMYLIFE ! drama again ? i sure freakin' hope not !
okaaay , so last night , i got a message from babygirl saying thaa her cousin was asking who saying stuff about her and Dobi . GAAAAH . i didn't even wana say anything , cause i don't want any drama to start .
so todaaay was going okaaay , buh i wanted to know if babygirl had read my message and replied back . then at third period , i got a text from Dobi , he wanted to know if i was telling people stuff about his ex , which i DIDN'T ! all i said was thaa i think she is hellah pretty ! unless compliments are considered talking crap and whatnot . so i told him straight up . thaa i told my bestfriend who she was , and thaa i found out thaa my bestfriend is his ex's cousin . he asked wuh i told my bestfriend , i told her thaa Dobi is her cousin's ex . thaa's all . and like he was like "so you didn't tell anyone anything" and all this . i said no . i heard stuff buh i didn't go spreading it around . i don't want drama , i don't need drama . and i don't even know thaa female , so why would i go around tellin' everyone her business ? shoot . i mean , did he really have to ask me ? i wish he knew me better and gave me the benefit of the doubt . so anyway . he wanted to know wuh i heard and who i heard it from . i told him wuh i heard , and kinda told him how i found out . buh i didn't tell him EVERY detail , cause he barely told me who told him i was talking about his ex . when i asked , all he said was "my kuzn" oh neegah ! thaa helps so much ! SIKEEE . and when i asked him who his cousin was , he asked me a different question and ignored mine . JERK . i mean , i know he still likes his ex , buh dang , you can't answer my questions ? or wonder how i feel ? if you think about it , someone is talking about me as well . and he doesn't mind . i'm the bad guy , righ ? WRONG . SO COMPLETELY WRONG . geez . so Dobi wanted to know all this info buh could barely answer my question . shoot . i give up . like i know he is lookin' out for her and stuff , buh WOW . y'know ? all up in my grill . buh he's a good guy , so i can't say much . i guess he's sprung off her and isn't AT ALL over her . so why get my hopes up , if ima watch them fall and shatter into pieces ? yaaahknow ? and after today , i don't wana try anymore . it's like i'm losing feelings . why waste my time ? GAAAAH ! i'm thinkin' too much again .
& likee , it doesn't help thaa he knows i like him . so i was thinkin' thaa he thinks , since i like him ima be the one talking about his ex ,WRONG , DEAD WRONG . boy , geet yo' shii straight . ahaha ! all this is makin' me think if it's all worth it . is it worth the wait ? will anything even happen between me and him ? uhmm , maybe not... who knows ? and wuh kinda sucked was thaa his aim status thingy said "i'm not strong enough to keep me away from you" and i don't mean to be nosy , buh i'm guessing thaa was directed torward his ex . i bet they finnah get back together . who wouldn't want him back , you'd be crazy if you didn't . fuhreal . buh the butterflies aren't the same anymore -_- which sucks . cause i loved them . everything changed when i told him . (FREAKIN' JIGGABOO ! 2 AND A HALF WEEKS ? ! REALLY ?) it felt somewhat awkward and there was no curious feeling like "he likes me , he likes me not" sorta thing . cause he never really said if i had a chance . so BLEEEEH ! why bother ? i don't wana try anymore . just let things happen . i'm not gonna talk to him first . i will only talk to him if he talks to me first , and not about his ex and stuff . NO DRAMA PLEASE ! hopefully he ain't like thaa , and won't say anything or start stuff . thaa is not wuh i need . shoot . wuh i need is a refreshment of the alcoholic variety ;D seriously . BLAME IT ON THE A-A-A-ALCOHOL !
if things don't work out with Dobi , i think 41 is cute(; buh i'm not desperate or in need of a boyfriend . i'm better off without all the B$ thaa comes along with a relationship or "talking" to someone . like righ now ! i ain't even "talking" to anyone and there is already drama with an EX ! the heezy ? thaa is not wsup ! grrr . i'm better off $INGLE ! ahaha . maybe i can get over Dobi if i really wanted to . buh wuh kinda sucks is thaa watching games won't be as fun anymore . i won't get all super excited . ima just be focusing on the game and really watching . no distractions , only when JV plays(; 41 BAYBEEEE . or VPNL . or LAKERS ! hehehe . buh WHATEVER HAPPENS , HAPPENS . and thaa's wuhs MEANT TO BE . so i can live with it . If GOD brought me to it , he will help me through it<3 oh yesss .